it might be over

this is something i have been feeling for the past month. there's something in the air and i think it might actually be over for me. i won't go into detail, since i know i could very well be wrong, but it is something that i am a little worried about.

part of me regrets ever trying to bring back squarebracket. it basically put me back in a very similar position to what i was in 2024, minus the meddling and a "backup". i am currently very unmotivated with working on the site and i have been feeling burnt out. it doesn't feel normal, i don't know what is going on within me.

in 2024, when i was packing up my bags and trying to leave squarebracket behind me, i miscalculated everything. not in regards to the initial events, but rather everything afterwards. i was back in one of the friend groups after 6 months. some of them later admitted they did not even actually care about what had happened. they had only cut ties in fear of being harassed.

we nearly catched a glimpse in july, but it was too late. that entire chapter has been closed since. and from what i've learned since, it's unlikely this will happen ever again. i have some regrets about this.

maybe.