like idk why but since i think last year theres often been periods of time where i can't fucking sleep and i end up all paranoid schizo whatever the fuck. i dont know why because all this does is wrap my perception of reality and like, cause me to play some weird ass game of 4d chess??? like atp idk who the fuck am i even anymore. its just, Weird. its not related to sb because who gives a fuck about it besides me. its like. "Ohhhh fuuck they'll start hating me all over again". I dont want another fucking nov5 (unrelated to us elections, just, i don't fucking know anymore). it was dumb self inflicted shit (and im not trying to defend myself whatever gotta live with it). Idk where the fuck im heading towards i just hope it's not gonna be another 2024. |